received a call from one of my sec sch juniors jus now inviting us to BBQ this fri

almost forgotten who is he (this shows how long it has been since we meet up with one another after we graduated from css)

teachers will be there too

sounds great!

to be able to catch up with one another after so long

but i decided not to go

wat's stopping me??!!

partly, i have something on tt day alr

but are there some other reasons too...?

perhaps ba....

scared? afraid?

but afraid of wat??

afraid that when we meet, the situation will be awkward since lost contact for so long with most of them??

or............??

i dunno

it's compicated that i dun even know exactly wat am thinking of