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this is my 4th week with the company.

Working life is really tiring and boring...

but guess i have learnt quite a bit.

having some tots in mind now-

do i really like this kinda life after graduation?

i dunno.

looking at my colleagues, working OT EVERYDAY!

work are piling up for them everyday.

Maybe this is the same for all professions?

so choose not to work?? or stay at home be tai tai??

haha, think most importantly is to find a job tt u really like.

i should start thinking again.

-choose the one u enjoy, and u nv got to work again-

just some thoughtz...

communication is very very impt

guess many would agree.

AND it's a 2-way thing,

be it with friends, family or bf/gf...

if one party keeps quiet all the time,

it's not gonna work.

silence doesnt always mean tt the other party doesnt care

but silence means not communicating.

frenx...

feeling moody these few days

or rather weeks tot was due to exams

but now exams are over and the feeling remains.

dunno why...

jus came back from kbox with a few frens

enjoyed myself

but wanted to hang out longer

since we didnt really enjoy ourselves for the past few weeks alr

and the feeling would be gone for a while when i am with them.

guess just needed some company
(funny thoughts will start to surface when ever i am alone)

but..... they didnt want to hangout anymore

someone even suggested tt i sub her for tuition while she can go dating.

HAIZ

what a fren!

guess was meant to be a joke but.... :(

[some more XX is someone whom i will... nvm say alr also no use]

tt's all....

received a call from one of my sec sch juniors jus now inviting us to BBQ this fri

almost forgotten who is he (this shows how long it has been since we meet up with one another after we graduated from css)

teachers will be there too

sounds great!

to be able to catch up with one another after so long

but i decided not to go

wat's stopping me??!!

partly, i have something on tt day alr

but are there some other reasons too...?

perhaps ba....

scared? afraid?

but afraid of wat??

afraid that when we meet, the situation will be awkward since lost contact for so long with most of them??

or............??

i dunno

it's compicated that i dun even know exactly wat am thinking of

genting trip

jus came back from genting

the trip was good

i enjoyed it, esp the weather - cool and nice

(hate the bus journey though, esp down hill)

the only way to do things well is to love the things which you are doing!

i love tax... :)

in the past, used to think that we were cf

but wat's the meaning of tt?

jus had my acc paper today, put in a lot of effort for this

but things weren't gg very well but wasn't that bad too i guess

jus hope that it wasn't too bad.

ain't feeling very well after tt

was hoping for a cf who would say something to cheer me up

but nv

was even 'reprimanded' by tt someone

wasn't like that in the past, it wasn't

was hurt, don't know y

maybe expectation was high, that's y feel worse

after that, i kept quiet

turned away and headed home

with no one knowing how i feel